So about two years ago I posted something on my blarg and mentioned that I thought this would be my internet journal dealio.... well it's really turned out to be that! HAHA I wrote on this as much as in my real journals throughout my life! YEESH!
Now I've revamped the ol' blarg look and I'm giving it another shot, another kick at the bucket, another stab at it.. has anyone ever noticed how violent trying again sounds? CHEESY JOKE: Yowzaaa, I really hope I DON'T get shot, kick the bucket or get stabbed aaaaactually! So here we go!
Update: This just in.... almost a year ago. I GOT MARRIED!! And I've been really blessed that the woman in the aformentioned blog posty accepted my proposal. She's really everything I've ever wanted in a woman and things here are great. And don't worry, I'll talk more about that in detail later. Let me mention also that "here" is Edmonton, Alberta and weve been living here since september??? Hon, can ya help me out on that? I went to the University of Alberta as a part-time student (are there any other kinds?) and took a Computer Science course. I loved the lab part the most. For reasons .. .hahaaha! I am and was working for Entrust Corp., a company dedicated to the betterment of disabled children and now adults, most of which are high behavioural and need a lot of love and guidance. That will be coming to an end soon though as I will (<---- LOOK HON! I SAID IT!!!) be attended the U of A full time this fall! I'm very excited because I just got accepted yesterday!
As far as updates go I believe that this is accurate to my situation in life right now, and now I can retrace the roads I travelled to reach here! More to come! prolly in 2 years prolly........
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, June 25, 2007
BLOG DATE a.a. 1.5, boldy going where lots of other dudes failed!
Well I guess this is like a journal of my personal ideas and thoughts ... but totally open to the public BEFORE I die instead of after, so I guess I may be embarrassed sometimes haha! Well, I am in love. A woman who is probably the most perfect woman has somehow been placed ever so gently in my path. She makes me feel like I can do anything and I know that when we're together everything is just perfect. I'm ever pineful of her hahaha. Lately I've been meditating to know if this is really what I want. I've never been more sure about never wanting to be without someone! It's a nice feeling.
I have been in love before though. It was a good experience every time, I learned a lot and grew VERY much. I have found that all those other times I was in love it was somehow different then this time. I am known to say that "just because it's new doesn't make it special" though and I still believe that. That's why for the last year I have seriously been considering this woman. When we talk I pay attention to her, and she paints me a picture of what she is like inside. It's the most beautiful picture I've seen. The trust and love that she gives me I can't but sit in awe of, it's truly amazing. I have a hard time understanding that still I guess. I'm getting a bit off topic but even though it's new it's a much clearer type of emotion. I guess I can't really describe it exactly. It's still love but almost like a different dialect.. that's just more peaceful, more patient, more charitable, more pure.
I guess when I was growing up I felt the importance of a "better half" in my life and watching movies, I discovered a love that I wanted and that I felt existed. I found that all movies, even action movies and comedies, would have these characters that when together would realize all of a sudden that there was something between them and they were "each others". It was a true love that wasn't defined by ONLY their words, but what they overcame to be together. Nothing else really compared to what they "knew". As I got older I started believing that they made stories like that NOT because it ever happens but because of people like me who want to believe in that kind of success story (for example, Princess Bride, Willow, Sleepless in Seattle). So I went through a time thinking that watching movies like that and allowing them to rekindle my hope that I would have a similar story as Serendipity was, to be blunt, stupid. So as I was dating and finding women I grew to have strong feelings for, the absence of that "knowing" feeling was just how things were. With those women I knew beforehand that they weren't my "one" but I dismissed those feelings because it really didn't matter but as I had felt I would always be left alone in the end. Ha ha! But in the end I've found her, and it's pretty interesting to see that it really can happen. I'm not saying that we've reached a happy ending yet though. I'm still not her husband, but that's something I've also learned. Even when something that is perfect is in your lap, peoples right to choose can change the finale. That's what they don't show you in the movies. More on love to come!
Aa
I have been in love before though. It was a good experience every time, I learned a lot and grew VERY much. I have found that all those other times I was in love it was somehow different then this time. I am known to say that "just because it's new doesn't make it special" though and I still believe that. That's why for the last year I have seriously been considering this woman. When we talk I pay attention to her, and she paints me a picture of what she is like inside. It's the most beautiful picture I've seen. The trust and love that she gives me I can't but sit in awe of, it's truly amazing. I have a hard time understanding that still I guess. I'm getting a bit off topic but even though it's new it's a much clearer type of emotion. I guess I can't really describe it exactly. It's still love but almost like a different dialect.. that's just more peaceful, more patient, more charitable, more pure.
I guess when I was growing up I felt the importance of a "better half" in my life and watching movies, I discovered a love that I wanted and that I felt existed. I found that all movies, even action movies and comedies, would have these characters that when together would realize all of a sudden that there was something between them and they were "each others". It was a true love that wasn't defined by ONLY their words, but what they overcame to be together. Nothing else really compared to what they "knew". As I got older I started believing that they made stories like that NOT because it ever happens but because of people like me who want to believe in that kind of success story (for example, Princess Bride, Willow, Sleepless in Seattle). So I went through a time thinking that watching movies like that and allowing them to rekindle my hope that I would have a similar story as Serendipity was, to be blunt, stupid. So as I was dating and finding women I grew to have strong feelings for, the absence of that "knowing" feeling was just how things were. With those women I knew beforehand that they weren't my "one" but I dismissed those feelings because it really didn't matter but as I had felt I would always be left alone in the end. Ha ha! But in the end I've found her, and it's pretty interesting to see that it really can happen. I'm not saying that we've reached a happy ending yet though. I'm still not her husband, but that's something I've also learned. Even when something that is perfect is in your lap, peoples right to choose can change the finale. That's what they don't show you in the movies. More on love to come!
Aa
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